memory box — hunjiya

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no one’s at fault and i know it’s not good to hold grudges comfort too long I’ve pleased and adapted to people that fascinate me i just want to belong But i’ve tried too hard to give forced myself a way in so i’ll make room and find what feels like home

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the same old story in another city i’ve moved three times to see if something fits me lemme start over i’m at my parents place saying farewell to my dead cats and my childhood hometown lemme start over lemme start over lemme start over i’m player 1 in this video game i don’t know how many lives it’ll take me but i’ve been close close to the edge before i get to the end before my skin wears thin before i begin lemme start over flew to the motherland cuz someone believed in me but grandma never saw me singing on TV lemme start over i changed my flight to a different country all because a boy said he loved me lemme start over lemme start over i wanna get to the end i wanna make you proud i’m gonna get to the end to prove that i’ve lived well lemme start over

as written

i find it hard to remember what i did last week or so but what once was a stranger is now everything i know i promise i won’t forget you even if we grow apart if i woke up with a new life I’d remember who you are my baby knows me i know my baby from one breath i can tell you’re upset i’ll know who you are through the sounds of footsteps if i lost you i’d know how to find you we’ve morphed into each other using all our made-up words if we ever traded bodies would there be much for us to learn? inst my baby knows me i know my baby my baby loves me i love my baby

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I don’t wanna call you 오빠 All the time 우리 한 살 차이 밖에 있는데 alright 난 관심없다고 없어 넌 도도해 너무 도도 도도도도 English translation I don’t wanna call you oppa all the time We're only one year apart, alright I'm not interested, I’m not You're arrogant, too arrogant Why you always say your gonna take me out for dinner Every time you buy I see my invoice gettin bigger Got me outta nowhere oh Did it for exposure oh Why you gotta bring me to the function when I’m sober I don’t wanna speak to anybody I don’t know yet Talking for the photo Oh Tell me when it’s over Oh you know i can’t get this time back fuck you you’re not gettin my checks and im fed up now don’t tell me whatchu want from me i packed my bags for you i gave up everything 현지 왜러게 슬퍼 보여 waiting until i’m the ceo 현지 너무 고집 세 표정을 고처야돼 한국어 잘 못해 어져라고? English translation (Hyunji, why do you look so sad? Waiting until I'm the CEO Hyunji, you're so stubborn You have to fix your expression I'm not good at speaking Korean What do you want me to do?)

as written

i wish my brain had a switch to log off when the dopamine hits i lost my originality my thoughts are a mix of everybody’s supermodels on ozempic i stopped my antidepressants god i wish i wasn’t obsessed with this screen change your life in 30 days listen to what strangers say this is how to be the best version of me i write a song i’m finally proud of but the same idea already blew up so i try and try and try again till i feel like myself but online it doesn’t feel like enough guess my frontal lobe’s developed i hate seeing people sell out and telling me the best ways to succeed couldn’t tell you what i’ve been learning i have trouble concentrating to all this information i don’t need this is how to be the best version of me

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I’ve found a bit of comfort in living through my mess The sounds of the metro shake my room while I’m still in the chair where you held all the air dissolved my words into misty little cries My room my cocoon wrapping me into the heat Ruminating over all the soft scarlett ties fanaticizing over old discarded lies that I had to keep telling myself You’re my new found reference for love Echoing the reverence for those who came before, filling spaces for the cherished, for the best Welcoming discomfort In my reminiscent dreams Where illusion lusts me over and disguises all the times where I felt all the rinds of coated faith come to skin and keep chipping me away Miami in the winter stirring up a fever dream the lights on the palm trees illuminate the stagnant season, how we reasoned after hours of endless screaming on a never ending storyline You’re my new found reference for love Echoing the reverence for those who came before, filling spaces for the cherished, for the best filling spaces for the cherished, for the best I can’t get over it feeling your pull in the full moon oh why can’t i get over it you’ve gone while i’m stuck in the same room